This was missing a title, so I came back a day later and gave it one...

Ever try to do something and it doesn't work? Kinda annoying eh? Like walking on ice. It doesn't always work. It's just a thought, inside my head. Those little voices, they're talking to me! Who sang that? Seven Year Bitch? I think it was them.

Again, it's snowing. It makes the streets look so peaceful. If there wasn't so much damn ice hiding underneath the snow, I'd go for a walk. I've had enough experience today with walking on ice.

So, I went to the gym today. Finally! I was sweating bullets in anticipation. Thankfully, my most un-favourite people were not there. However, everyone else was! It was so busy! Everyone and their cousin was there today. I guess I can't blame them. I mean, they need to work out too. However, I'm still waiting for the "I give up on my New Year's resolution of fitness" people to stop coming. It usually happens around March.

So, I felt bad today. I have a title on my IM and it was "I'm still Satan, however I have to resolve other's 'issues' for them." Well, certain people that I am not talking to are on my IM list. I purposely did it, so she could see it. I wanted to upset her. I know, a bit childish. But it made me feel better at the beginning, however don't ask me why, but my conscious kicked in. Isn't nice to know that I'm not a total ass. I feel sorry for the assholes that hurt me in my life. Possibly a sign that I am a good person. Well I attempt to be a good person.

I was thinking about what happened. I have realized that I have forgive her for hurting me, however I don't think I can be her friend. She is a selfish person. And due to that she hurt me. And for the record, I was treated like a chauffer. And on this subject there can be no debate. If you don't like driving at night, won't drive on the highway, in rain and snow and you call in sick when you think there is going to be a lot snow... then the person that carted you around all the time IS a chauffer. So, she hurt me. And I can't be friends with someone who ALWAYS put themselves first. Not that I am saying that she should put me first. However there is caring for yourself while caring for others. I'm the kind of person that always cares for others before me. Not a healthy position, which is why I probably drove her ass around all the time.

Oh there was two times she did drive me. Once to the gym. Well technically it was only once, however she did offer once. Except it was because she wanted me to be in the car with her to drive to watch her boyfriend and his band rehearse. She begged me to go and said something about me getting to know her boyfriend better, blah, blah, blah. I have no idea why she couldn't go by herself. I didn't go cause it was all last minute, I needed to wash my hair and all that stuff. That and I don't want to get to know her boyfriend better. What, so we can hang out? Yeah, I wouldn't want my best friend hanging out with my boyfriend, so why would she suggest that. SO...

It is not just her that I refuse to be friends with. It's all people that wanna pull the selfish act on me. The best selfish talk I ever got from a friend (who no longer is) was "Come skiing with us, that way it will be cheaper." Never ask someone to go skiing after having minor surgery. They won't go, regardless of how much money they will potentially save you.

Anyways, I think I'm done here.

Rock on!