Another source of angrygirl's power

Today I saw something that I didn't like. Glee. Actually I would call it elation! There was this person that was taking ABSOLUTE delight in someone else's misfortune. Granted I have no idea if the people were having the misfortune deserved it, as in did something bad and are getting their just desserts, or that something bad just happened to them. But regardless if they got what they deserved, or it was misfortune, being SO happy about it is just harsh! Watching this person go on and on in delight about the misfortune was the most awful thing to see. It was sickening. Then he proceeds to talk about how he would beat the living shit out of a man that upset him and blah, blah, blah. Okay, who's got issues?!?!?!

But I think we have found another source of angrygirl's anger. Cruelty.

Although, I think he was being rude (one of my sources of anger) in telling everyone about someone else's misfortune, however delighting in it is CRUEL! Cruelty to anything is just wrong. I mean, I am sure at some time in my life that I have been vindictive, however I think there is a difference between vindictive and cruel. So, I've looked it up on dictionary.com. Vindictive is the inclination for revenge. Cruel is enjoying the pain or distress of others. I have never delighted in the pain of others. Wait a second. Maybe I have... Well, umm, hang on. I have delighted in the discomfort of my sibling. However, in my defence they are a MOTHER-FUCKER!!!

This person has made me cry, hurt me and been cruel on multiple instances for many years. Apparently I made them cry once. My mom was very much upset about it, apparently my feelings aren't important. However, I feel that these tears could have been crocodile tears. But I think they were created out of fear. I threatened them. Why, because regardless of what is good for me, they made their significant other live in the same house as me. I wasn't consulted on this, and even though I don't own the house, I LIVE in the house. I am a member of the family and therefore I should have a FUCKING say on WHO THE FUCK LIVES IN THE HOUSE. I mean, we wouldn't want a rapist, or a homicidal manic living or a complete stranger in the house. And that's what exactly this person is... a stranger. She could be a cleptomanic for all we know. Previously I found out that my sibling cheated on his significant other and when that person moved into the house I was angry (haha! Shocking, me and anger in the same room). They had an open invitation to live at the house, as in NO time limit. And I'm sorry, this job that they got was the "career" job that would help their future. And of course it would make things SO much easier for my sibling. Well, long story short, the lazy mother-fucker didn't want to drive them to work in the morning and the public transportation would take TOO long for them and they don't have a license, so the only solution is to live at our house. And, may I add that this 'career' job lasted for less than a month. Wow!!! What a career!!!

Here another thing, if you are over the age of 20, get your fucking license. Really, even if you aren't going to drive because you live in the city, just fucking buck up and get it. Eventually at one point or another you will need that license. It's a necessary skill, like CPR or reading. Yes, driving could save someone's life too. A pregnant woman needs to get where? A hospital, well then someone should drive her! Anyways, so I made the shit-head cry. Big deal, I was glad that I hurt them. I wouldn't change what I did for all the money in the world. I showed them who is boss and they don't treat me like they used to. Not saying that it's been a miraculous 180, but there has been some change.

So, maybe I was cruel. Nobody is perfect, especially not me. Just cause I don't like it doesn't mean I haven't done it. And maybe it was karmic realignment for my sibling... Get back what you have done to others, three-fold. I mean they have been cruel to me on several occasions. I don't know!!!! All I know is that cruelty makes me angry. When it is inflicted on me or on others. And other's include animals too. What can be gained from cruelty? Really? I would love to hear someone's justification. It is needed because... there is no reason. Hurting someone intentionally won't save the world, won't make you a hero, won't make you happy, won't give life. It will only cause suffering, anger and hatred. It's a poison to our bodies. I'll agree that it has affected me that way. It hasn't made anything better for me. Yes, there has been change in how I am treated, however this change may not be permanent. They may be saving it up for later to hurt me. They may forget and resume their prior behaviour. We don't know if the change is permanent. And if it is, what the consequences are. Cruelty from my sibling has cause me not to talk to them. I will never be their friend again. I don't want them to be a part of my life. I don't want to be a part of their life either. It's sad, that cruelty has cause the bond of family to not only disolve, but to be blown out of the water to smithereens!

So, although there were some tangents here and there, we now have another piece of the puzzle if you will. Rudeness and cruelty. Hopefully, we'll find more sources. Then we have to tackle the 'angry' part. That's right, how to get rid of it. Sigh, I'm gonna need another blog. Maybe I'll call it 'making angrygirl just a girl.' Time to go!

¡hasta luego!