Wake up in the morning, feeling shy and lonely! Hey, I gotta go to school...

The prior blog I made tips for having a good weekend. Somehow I forgot this tip!?!?

Tip #6: Drink wine before going to bed.

Doctor's recommend a few glasses of wine a week. It's full of antioxidants (or some crap like that). It's therefore apparently good for you. So, I see nothing wrong with having a glass of wine before bed. You drink your wine before bed and you get all relaxed. You don't cry yourself to sleep cause you can't hold a thought for very long. That, and your senses are all dulled due to the alcohol content. You possibly could actually go to bed at a decent hour if you have it at a certain time. You then fall into a deep sleep and wake up the next morning refreshed. The only drawback I can see with this is, you'll be thirsty (well, wine makes me thirsty!). Also if you have a bladder like mine, you will need to use the facilities. SO, that's my tip...

So, I have been struggling with an issue lately regarding my future. I have made my decision as to what I want to do. It's my life and I am the one that needs to make the decisions, however when people are not fully informed (because they don't not live the same way I do) and they are not educated in the same way I have, it bother's me when they try to tell me that what I'm doing is wrong.

I try not to tell people what to do with their lives. I give suggestions as to what to do, and offer assistance, however if they don't accept it or ask me to shut the hell up, I do! Simple as that. So, it bother's me when people tell me I'm being irrational based on my decision.

I also become angry when people treat me like a retarded goat. I'm not stupid. I have never given anyone any indication that I am, however, they continue to treat me like I am. The way I handle my life may not be perfect but sweet-merciful-crap... I'm a work in progress! JUST LIKE EVERYONE ELSE!

There is NO perfect person. No matter how well things have gone in your life, all the "great" things you have... does not mean that you have NEVER made a mistake. We do the best we can. And when it isn't good enough, we either learn from our mistakes or keep making them until we do learn something. And that could take minutes, hours, weeks, months, years, or may not ever happen. But regardless if it does or doesn't, NO ONE has the right to rub your nose in it.

The best thing I think someone can do is be supportive, regardless if you agree with their decision or not. And even if it doesn't turn out to be the right decision/choice/solution, in the end the person was being true to themselves and therefore should not hear "I told you so!" Let them make their own decision, regardless if you are better informed. One thing I know is that the more you push someone the more they push back against you.

On another note, I am getting annoyed of people always telling me I'm wrong. I am the one that always has to change. Maybe it's my point of view, but if I am wronged everyone tells me that I need to be the one that restores the relationship to what it was. I can't move on from that relationship, or want it to be delayed until I can put up boundaries. The wrongee doesn't have to change but I do. That's fucked up to me. Maybe I don't understand it, but... I don't know.

NE WAYZ! I'm tired and therefore going to bed. That and I'm hungry and it would be better for me to just go to sleep (and have a drink of water) than eat. Mmmm, but leftover's would taste super yummie right now. NO! I must resist temptation!

Now cracks a noble heart.--Good night, sweet friends, And flights of angels sing thee to thy rest!