First Entry - Notice My Anger

This is my first blog. I know people who have blogs and I've read them. And they range from the super-happy-I-love-life to someone who totally doesn't. To me, it seems like an outlet. So here's mine....

List of Characters:
Angry girl as me
My boyfriend as my boyfriend
My Mother as my Mother
My best friend - "best friend," "friend," her
My boyfriend's ex girlfriend - the ex, ex

Sigh! I've been having a bad couple of weeks. I don't know about anyone else, but as much as I like Christmas (the decorations and the snow) spending time with friends and family is stressful. Driving everywhere, interrupted sleep (I like my sleep), and kissing. I hate kissing people on the cheek! If I wanted to be that close to you I would give you a hug!!! But no, I gotta kiss you!!!! Especially those with beards (eyes narrowing).

Anyways, the worst thing that happened over my Christmas "break" was seeing my "best friend" at the gym with my boyfriend's ex-girlfriend. Granted they work together, with my Mother no less, however, I don't want to be her friend. I don't need a friend that has been involved with the same man that I currently (and hope to spend the rest of my life) with. It's just weird and creepy all wrapped into one. Hmmm, you probably need a bit of background information for this story.

My "best friend" started working in the field of education. The same place where my mother works.... anyways! That's another story. So, other people were hired at the same time, which was how she met my boyfriend's ex. We didn't know that was my boyfriend's ex until September, when I put all the pieces of the puzzle together I realized who she was. My friend asked her and viola! it was her. So, they hang out because they work next to each other & they go for coffee runs & lunch together, which is cool. You can be friends with anyone you want.

So shortly after figuring out about the ex, my "friend" had a stupid fight with her boyfriend at a party that we all were at. Well everyone got involved in this fight and I basically ended up having a fight with my "friend." She was very mad at me that night, and ended up yelling and swearing at me. So, we had an argument, we made up and long story short, several months later she's still mad at me.

Now back to the recent present (is it possible to have a recent present though?).

So, we haven't really talked in a while. I bought her a Christmas gift and everything but haven't really talked to her. I tried extending a couple of olive branches, however they weren't always accepted. Did I metion that we are both members at the same gym? During the Christmas break I decided to go to the gym to take one of the classes that was offered during the day. Lo and behold, whom do I see at the gym taking the same class? Her and the ex.

Now I'm sorry, I may be from a different planet, but where I come from that's considered an insult! And she totally replaced me with the ex. Lent her all the same equipment that she lent me when I joined the gym with her the year before. And maybe I'm expecting too much from a friend of 10 years+, but I do expect that you don't do THAT to me. I felt betrayed.

Oh, please note, I didn't have 100% proof that the girl was the ex. Upon later inqury at the gym a few days later, I found out that it was the ex and not only did she use a guest pass that day, but she signed up for that gym for a year! Nice!

So, now my "best friend" has replaced me with my boyfriend's ex and I'm SUPER peeved. So, I asked my mother to give her the Christmas gift I bought her. I know, a bit childish, maybe a bit rude, but I couldn't stand seeing it in my room. A reminder of the betrayal perhaps?

My mother gave her the gift and of course they proceeded to have a conversation. She was shocked that she got the gift from my Mother, as she hoped to exchange gifts together in person. She the admitted to my mother (on a frequent basis she involves my Mother, which doesn't tickle me pink) that she saw me at the gym and was SO upset that I didn't come up to her and say hi! All the while, skipping over the fact that the ex was with her!

That night my mother comes home and lectures me to high hell about "being rude to friends who love and miss you SO much." I then told my Mother who was with her and the subject was dropped (sweet victory! 1 point for me!).

She then decides to actually contact me (for the first time in MONTHS) via e-mail. Anyways, it's this big, dirty, long e-mail about how she is still mad at me, but not the other two friends at the party or her boyfriend, for how I acted during her "incident" at the party. She then goes on to say that she doesn't tolerate rudeness from friends and blah, blah, blah! So, I decided to write her back. Hey! During the festivis season, do we not have the airing of greviances?

And it wasn't pretty.... at all. I told her that I felt that she would "probably perfer a venearal disease than calling me." And I just realized that I spelt in wrong in the e-mail! Opps! Hopefully my excessive anger will allow the spelling mistakes to be over looked. Then again, probably not! I also told her that I thought that SHE was rude, by bringing ex to the gym as my replacement. Well, when all was said and done and I pushed send I felt GRRRRRREAT!!! Oh! You can't imagine how great!

That day she must have read and replied to the e-mail because around 12:30am I got a text message that said "I can't sleep. Check yer e-mail." Well, I was feeling great and really wanted to go to bed, so I ignored her text and went to bed. I woke up refreshed! Man, it was the first great sleep I had in weeks.

That leads me today. I have yet to check the e-mail. I didn't want to ruin my weekend and have to have discussions with tears in a public setting. But I have felt quite miserable. I'd been holding that in for days! I also don't want to involve my boyfriend (whom I always confide in) because I'm pretty sure that he doesn't want to know about the ex. There is a reason that the ex is the ex.

Anyways, that's all I have to say about that.

Angry out!