A new month... a new post?!?!

It's been a while. Actually I can't remember the last post. Well. I'm feeling super-fantastic-awesome today! I have smiled for about 65% of the day (not including the times when I am sleeping, cause I don't know if I smile during sleep. I did have a nightmare about a tiger trying to eat me while I was in someone's basement though.). That's a new record for me people. And after feeling great, I felt so-so and went back to great! I don't know if it was the 'person miming walking downstairs where there are no stairs' routine that I did from a second-story window for my mother or re-reading something that I wrote that I found SO hilariously FUNNIE (please remember the rule and how we spell funny in angrygirl world). Plus, Blondie told me about a t-shirt that I should wear to the gym. She wants me to have one made that says on the front:

my boyfriend loves

ME!!!

And on the back it would say:

NOT

you!!!

I drew a picture of it cause we all know that I love the pictures. Yeah, a bit cruel, but I didn't think it up. And I actually thought it was funnie. And usually after something is SO funnie, it gets real sad, but it doesn't anymore. Somebody must have slipped some happy pills in my pancakes!!!! Oh well. So yeah, super-happy day! Hazah for me! I was talking with my beloved knitting buddy. I don't think she knows that she's my knitting buddy. But we definitely share a love of knitting and tea drinking. And tube cookies! She needs a name. I'm gonna call her Spring, because she has made the real me; that has been lying dormant in the long winter that has been my life; come to life. It's been a long journey.

Well, Spring and I discussed changing the name of my blog. I mean, the whole point of the blog was to figure out why I was angry and I am quite less angry these days. And I do know why. However, I think I am going to hold off on it for a little while. I mean, I still need to vent and say somethings that I'm angry about. Not that if I got a new nom de plume that I would never get angry, it would just be that I would focused on something else. And since I've been angry so long, it's gonna take a while to get a new persona. I mean, I don't want to be super-happy-sickeningly-sweet-girl (I actually believe that sweet is pronouced suh-weet here!) that writes. Maybe I'll just be me. Would that be so bad? I mean, I could actually be what the 'ultimate' put me here for, instead of what I got side tracked into being.

Dunno. I'll think about that. One thing I am worried about is that my new found happiness has been (I'm wincing right now) by the... (I'm sorry) misery of others. There I said it. Something that I have admittedly said makes ME angry.

Unfortunately I found out a small tidbit yesterday that made me happy. My sibling's significant other is moving out. All those times when I suspected 'trouble in paradise' I was right. So much so, that they are moving out of the apartment. My father says that sibling has 'finally had enough of "them"' however I think what a smart individual told me is true. That my sibling will never find true happiness with another because of who he is due to distorted thinking passed on from other people's distorted thinking. Wow, have I been dabbling with CBT or what?!?!? So, I'm a little worried that it is the cause of happiness. Well, it will be discussed with the appropriate people at the appropriate times.

So, yeah. Hope everyone enjoys the picture. I know I love hand-drawn pictures.

Love and gunk,

angrygirl